25, Jun 2006 04:40
It was the last day. It rained slightly.
I am never afraid of missing anything. I take everything into my heart carefully--everything I was sensing, hearing, touching and experiencing. All of them become dense memories. I remember all of them very clearly even now.
Actually, because I already fear for missing, it's no need to be afraid of missing now. It's no reason not to be present entirely. Because you never know what it will be missed by incaution. I know I will stay every moment carefully, then let go everything-- let things just be as they are.
I am not afraid of missing something. But I worry about forgetting--something really important and true.
So I wrote a bit thing every nights. Remembering some said that "even the thinnest ink is better than the best memory". Somehow it's not enough...no it's not!
I feel something wrong.. The final day came closer my uneasy feeling was getting strong.
It didn't stop until this final morning, final whirling and silent sitting.
Dear, do you know what "open entirely" is? Be open! Let everything comes in. Keep breathing and let all things pass by. Then we will be One.
This is what I want to say in this final day.
Heart is never anxious for forgetting.
It's both rainy and sunny today while Chan-Chu typhoon was passing by. We leaved for Taitung this morning. Our cars went through many mountains. Sometimes the roads are even between mountains and the ocean. I saw from window, it showed plentiful green scenes.Clouds are candyfloss alike. Skyline is melting far away, the flowing view is just like the aquarelle. I watched all of these silently, then sweet feeling came into my heart.
Departure--it's moment for good bye, start also.
In the first essay I mentioned that it's the beginning anywhere. Yes, It's the end anywhere, too.
So, let's get going.
--English version is translated by Yakini